We’ve heard about this for years but had nothing confirmed. Now it’s confirmed — same story, different victim. God bless this young lady for her courage. Here’s a link to the Facebook post, which is dated April 7, 2020. Here’s the pigman who abused her.
It is a bit out of my norm to write posts over 100 words and definitely not about dirty laundry. But I have decided to explain why I am no longer a Christian. For many this will not come as a surprise; others may mourn the state of my soul; and some will wonder how/why I stuck to my faith for so long.
Many people in the church have supported and counseled me through some exceptionally dark times. I will forever be grateful for their love and care. However, I find I cannot trust the church as an institution. After the evil I have experienced, I doubt whether God exists or cares.
I was raised Christian and attended Logos School, a Christian high school. While in high school, I suffered sexual abuse at the hands of my church doctrine teacher, a respected elder of the church affiliated with my school. Even after his misconduct was discovered, Christ Church still allowed Jim B. Nance to serve communion. He remains an active member of that community while I was told to clean out my closet of slutty clothing, but I only owned school uniforms. The school decided to deal with the issue internally instead of immediately bringing the situation to the police. Because of this choice, I suffered additional years of abuse. The nightmares from that time still keep me up at night. I cried out to God over and over again. I begged him to end it or just to let me die. The shame I bore from what was happening to me was multiplied by feelings of guilt over my apparent sin. Jim fostered this notion using it to further torture and shame me into silence.
It took years before I was able to share what was going on with another human and escape that hell. Unfortunately, I was too old to be protected by the law but too young to understand or have the words to describe what happened to me. Sexual assault victims make unreliable witnesses simply by virtue of the trauma they have experienced.
When I moved to Washington, DC I attended Capitol Hill Baptist Church (CHBC), a “healthy” church filled with kind and supportive people. I received therapy and counseling through the church. I loved that community more than I can even put into words. It was a far cry from Christ Church led by the notorious Doug Wilson, known nationally for his misogyny and mistreatment of sexual abuse cases.
However, while at CHBC, I suffered from yet another sexual assault. My assailant has not associated with the church in any way. A few weeks after the assault, I made a life changing discovery: consensual sex. Through having sex consensually, I learned to differentiate abuse and sex. The guilt smothering me melted away. However, I still felt burdened by the “sin” of having sex outside of marriage. Within a week of my first having consensual sex, I confessed to my church counselor. Through this confession I experienced a betrayal which church members told me I would one day appreciate.
Around this time my parents, who I saw about once a year, visited me in DC. A week later the church leaders made me choose between going on trial before a church elder and saying goodbye to my parents as they boarded their flight home. The punishment, had they convicted me, would have been a public announcement to the 1000+ church members about my sexual sin. They called this putting someone on the “care list”. The church’s draconian reaction whipped me back to the dark state of mind I had suffered from while under Jim’s control. The “care list” is the first step in the church discipline process ending with ex-communication. I knew as I sat in that church office; if the elders chose to put me on that list, I would never show my face in that building again. It turns out, that breach in trust nicked an artery and my relationship with religion began to slowly bleed out. For the first time in four years, I started skipping church services. I felt as isolated as I had when I was with Jim, too afraid to share anything lest the church reject me. Eventually I realised I did not need the church in my life whether by their rejection or my own personal choice. At some point, the idea of just walking away became bearable and even desirable.
The split was natural and uncomplicated. Rather than pursuing a new church community upon moving to Australia, I tried living without it. I discovered how good it felt to put forward an honest face instead of a rigid Christian mask. I can now say I am grateful for the care list, but not in the way the church would have preferred. Freedom from that authoritarian institution has left me happier than I can remember.
(Feel free to share. I have named names for the sake of those still trapped in the community.) —Emilie Dye
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Its funny because his “Misogynistic” Church is actually pretty Anti-Traditional:
https://dalrock.wordpress.com/category/pastor-doug-wilson/page/6/
He undermines the very headship he claims to support. And has proven himself a snake in many ways
Dear Jesus , is there no end to the filth roiling from Wilson & Company? Has this been reported to the police? And has Wilson tried the usual angle of having Kirk attorneys representing both sides of illegal predicament? Above all, what has Wilson had to say about Nance? This is an extremely serious allegation, and my heart breaks for this poor woman, not only for what she’s endured, but for what she will endure now that she’s gone
Hi Keely:
I understand that it has been reported to the police, but I infer from the comments on Facebook that Nance groomed her — then waited until he did not run into a Jamin Wight situation. Like the others, Wilson has not said anything and likely won’t until he’s forced by public pressure. And like the others, this is simply horrible.
The victims are many and there will be more coming out of the shadows. But those who have run gamut know that the cost is high for speaking the truth. However, Christ Church has ample funding (ex: Crapuchettes and Carnahan). Frequently, in a court of law, whoever has the better legal representation often wins and there are some very dirty lawyers in Moscow willing to line their pockets for 30 pieces of silver. Lincoln Wilson (Doug’s nephew) and his wife are even (former?) NY attorneys who are known to offer free legal advice and funding to offending parties.
“Frequently, in a court of law, whoever has the better legal representation often wins…”
Be a lot more honest if they just auctioned off the verdict to the highest bidder.
The Moscow PD officer in charge of the case didn’t confirm with me that there was sexual contact between the two and that Nance, in his opinion, deliberately waited until the girl turned 18 before his grooming turned sexual and physical. The cop was really frustrated and I am really angered.
“Nance, in his opinion, deliberately waited until the girl turned 18 before his grooming turned sexual and physical.”
Like that other Doug (“ESQUIRE”) and “in a Biblical Sense”,
This is commonly called “LOOPHOLE! LOOPHOLE! LOOPHOLE!”
Or “Jot-and-tittle Letter of the Law.”
I think a Rabbi from Nazareth had a lot to say on the subject.
Wow. There are not words to describe this. Wilson, Nance and co. are sociopathic grifters, sophists, and abusers. Nance and Wilson tortured a young woman, cost her her life, her family, and even her faith, showing that these people have no principles whatsoever except to advance God’s Kingdom on Earth(TM), whatever the cost. First Sitler, then Wight, and now Nance? Each story gets progressively more disgusting.
I went through one of Wilson’s classical schools as a boy. I personally know many who endured serious emotional abuse at their hands, developing self-destructive tendencies, alcoholism, and worse. That’s on them. What will it take before the authorities get involved?
Stories like this are why I don’t drop around too often. Totally foreseeable and totally sick. This sort of thing always happens when there is a power imbalance between individuals unless there are appropriate safeguards in place, and there is always a power imbalance in any rigid institution.